Monday, June 23, 2008

Mind Photos


The longest days of the year are at hand and the temperatures are rising here on the Arabian Peninsula.109 degrees is the hottest day I have experienced so far, but I am told it will get much hotter. Funny, but I want to know what 120 degrees is like. I’m crazy, I know, but it is my curiosity that wants to be satisfied in this matter. I also have a kind of longing for new experiences. I can tolerate the heat when it is dry, but not when it gets humid, and Abu Dhabi being right on the gulf, it can get very humid. On days like that, I come home from work and take a nap in the comfort of air-conditioning, and I wonder how the Arabs did it not-so-many-years-ago, living and traveling in the sun day in and day out.

What I didn’t realize is how much dust in the air can keep the temperature down. Imagine living in a murky fish bowl and that is a bit what it is like when the dust is hanging in the air. It has the feel of an over-cast sky but it is just dust in the air. But lose the dust and the temperature sky-rockets. I am reminded of the great cloud over the Israelites in the wilderness that camped over them. I understand its importance a little better now.

What is nice is, in the cool of the evening when sunset comes and the call to prayer resounds through the air, I feel a kind of peace. I know then, that sometimes it is the harsh severities that we experience that make us feel alive. The heat and the humidity can deaden me, sap my energy to work and think, but it passes and I perk up later.

I went back to Sharjah this weekend and went through the Blue Souq. Most of the shops were closed as is the custom between the hours of 1:00 and 4:30. I passed a place on the second floor near a stairway, and saw shoes placed on the steps and around about. I wondered if the shop workers were at prayer, but as I came closer, I realized that they were sleeping on the carpet. I was tempted to take a picture of this scene, but it seemed rude, so I took a picture with my mind instead. I take a lot of pictures with my mind: Old men in turbans and head cloths, women moving like shadows in their long, black abayas, Pakistani workers squatting, men walking down the street holding hands, dust and dirt, Emirati men dressed in their pure white dish dashes, sitting in coffee shops plugged into their cell phones, sipping coffee. I have mind photos of sunsets, the jade moons, crowds of men sitting on the city grass at night socializing and on and on.

Mind photos might be better than real photos. Mind photos show me the things the camera can’t explain. Indeed a picture of such a thing steals the reality of what is in the mind. Best of all, mind photos may, just may, last for eternity.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Bridge


I built a bridge to Alpha-Centauri.
I won’t go into the details of the technology.
I made it look just like the Brooklyn Bridge
But it doesn’t go to Manhattan, of course
I’ve already told you it goes to Alpha-Centauri.

Really. It does.

I’ve crossed it myself and back again.
And I just left it there for others to cross.
No, no, no, I’m not going to charge.
I don’t believe in that sort of thing.
I’ve always believed that if we all just gave freely,

We would have no need for money...imagine that!

Some people believe in love, others believe in money,
But we’re a long way from Alpha-Centauri.
So let me show you the bridge I built.
I realize there are dangers for Alpha-Centaurians,
Once humans start to go there.

What will they think of us?

We will likely bring our pollution and diseases,
And worst of all our entrepreneurs!
But we may well take our art, our music, and our poetry
And other vestigial remnants from quaint days
When we believed in the existence of a thing called a soul.

And there might be dangers!

Who knows what good and evil they may bring to us?
Who knows if Alpha-Centaruians are safe?
Should I have done it? Should I have built my bridge?
Eve and the apple? Pandora and the box?
And just who am I to risk the security of all humanity?

Ah, now, that is the question isn’t it?

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

God@yahoo.com

Date: Tue, 10 Jun 2008 00:16:43 -0700 (PDT)
From: Nemo Ogle
Subject: Do you think of me?
To: God@yahoo.com

Dear Almighty,

I e-mailed you a few years ago. Apparently you have a yahoo account because the mailer daemon didn't tell me at that time that he couldn't deliver your mail. But you know daemons, unreliable creatures really. But you never e-mailed me back. I find this typical of your behavior. Billions of people crying out to you every day eon after eon. If good happens they credit you as having answered, if bad happens they credit you with having answered in a way they didn't like. It is when nothing happens at all that people begin to doubt, and wonder where you are.

I have had several encounters with you in my life where you did speak to me in that "still, small voice". And sometimes not so small voice. "The kingdom of heaven is in you." So I listen to that voice that is in me, combining it with Emerson's input to become more reliant on what I hear there and trust it. I know that such things are very subjective. Yet I wonder, which is more true: the subjective or the objective? Objective is just facts, not truth. Truth has a lot more to do with how the facts are interpreted. I think that subjective truth has a lot more going for it.

Emerson said that "intuition is the highest faculty of the soul." "Know yourself" is something else that he said. But a self is a very subjective thing. Can't see it. Can't smell it, taste it, or touch it, like you can the body. But a self--the observer who thinks and responds to other selves-- well now that is a mystery not so easily washed away by those who believe in objectivity, in spite of all their theories of being and consciousness.

Why am I telling the All-knowing these things? I don't know. I am a human being, and though you are a divine being, you are still being. In my own human way, I guess, sometimes I don't really want anything from you other than to just talk. I know that people ask you for things all the time. Can you please heal my 96 year old grand mother from her heart trouble? Can you send me money: I'm in dire straights? Can you send me a perfect husband who will love me? Can you make me rich and prosperous? If you just let me win that lottery I will go to church every Sunday and give money to the poor etc., etc. Can you please take me back in time for five minutes so I can undo the stupid thing I just did? Everybody wants something from you. As Janis put it: "O Lord, won't you buy me a Mercedes Benz..."

But today, all I really want is you. Just you, just to talk to you, I think. At least you are a good listener.

I guess I thought you should know.

By the way, Happy Father's day.


Date: 10 Jun 2008 07:16:44 -0000
From: MAILER-DAEMON@yahoo.com
To: Nemo
Subject: failure notice

Hi. This is the qmail-send program at yahoo.com. I'm afraid I wasn't able to deliver your message to the following addresses. This is a permanent error; I've given up. Sorry it didn't work out.
"context": "209.191.118.103 failed after I sent the message. Remote host said: 554 delivery error: dd Sorry your message to god@yahoo.com cannot be delivered. This account has been disabled or discontinued [#101]. - mta489.mail.mud.yahoo.com

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

The Land was Harsh

Did you think the land was harsh
Because it did not want your plow?
And to your soiled, calloused hands
It would not yield, nor would it bow.

Unmoved, you moved to slice the ground,
And scarred the earth to meet your need.
Heedless of the pain you caused
And threw, on virgin soil, your seed.

Where once the wild weeds would bloom
Tall tame plants have come to grow—
Those stiff straight soldiers march
In row, on row, on row, on row
.